The Malleable Light

The Malleable Light Evolves

2009-07-28T17:12:00.001-05:00

Over the past few weeks I have not had the time or the mindset to pursue metaphysical things due to several projects in my life. These include starting a web hosting / programming company and opening a metaphysical bookstore.

I wanted to let people know that I am still very much into metaphysical things and have not lost interest, but instead am actually putting metaphysical things on hold so that I can get more into metaphysical things if you know what I mean. I think that opening a bookstore will give me more exposure to the subject matter than anything else I can think of. I will review the books and get to meet many more like minded folks.

Right now the store is just a concept in my head, however it will be called "The Malleable Light Bookstore" and will be hosted by me at malleablelight.com.

During my process to start up my web hosting / programming business I thought it only appropriate to host my own blog so therefor I have switched to wordpress and have written a custom template that preserves the essence of the blogger site that I had before. I am still in the process of migrating the data from my old site but things are going well and I am happy with the new site that I actually have 100% control over in contrast to blogger where I had maybe 50% :).

I would like to thank everyone for reading my blog and wish everyone the best. Please feel free to leave feedback about my new site and I look forward to hearing from you.

The new site can be found at http://www.malleablelight.net

An Extended Out of Body Experience

2009-06-20T08:00:00.021-05:00

Last night I went to bed at 12:30 AM with a orgone transfer sitting above my head linked to my RAD 5 which was pulsing my orgone field at 63 HZ. I didn't have much trouble falling asleep and was snoring in 10 minutes or less.

I don't remember the dreams I had early into the night however at what seemed about 4 AM I had a very vivid dream of being on a passenger jet plane, sitting in the cockpit while the pilot was flying too low at takeoff. There was a fleeting moment of fear when I noticed that he wasn't going to clear the house in front of us and then I was suddenly standing out in front of the house with an odd feeling that my body was somewhere else injured leaving my soul standing in front of this house. The rest of the dream was spent looking for my body. I seemed to be half lucid through this entire dream and I ended up meeting this girl that was helping me out in some shelter type place for souls that were temporarily out of body due to violent life threatening injuries. The people running the place seemed to be very rude and cruel and kept speaking in a language I didn't understand.

I was still with this girl later in the dream. We were hanging out at a swimming pool after sneaking out of the shelter when I suddenly woke up in sleep paralysis and sensed a threatening presence beside me. This was odd to me because I knew that nothing should be able to harm me so I turned 90 degrees and realized that presence was my cat.

The room I was in was not my current room. I was in my childhood room, or at least that's what my double was seeing. With a forceful will I demanded myself out out of body. I thought I woke myself up at first but then realized I had transitioned to out of body. I didn't think about where my physical body was at this point.

The first thing I noticed was that some extremely cruel thoughts were flowing through me. I picked up my cat and threw her into the closet and violently closed the door. I then felt my thoughts normalizing and my waking life clarity locked in and I actually felt bad for throwing the cat into the closet so I let her go. I wonder if this really was my cat and if she was perceiving the same thing?

I remembered that in my previous out of body experiences I was unable to travel to different places and that irritated me so I tried a technique that I read in Monroe's first book. He was able travel to a person's location by thinking about their personality and leaning his body in the direction he thought they were relative to where he was.

Well... I tried his technique and it seemed to work very well. The only difference was that I used the send button on my blackberry wireless device instead of leaning :). I may not have actually found who I was looking for but I did travel to at least 15 different places this time, of which only about 4 I can actually remember. The other 11 I know happened because I committed to memory during the experience that I had visited 15 places but would most likely not remember them all.

I used to work with a guy who was always poking fun at me for experimenting with astral projection so he was my first target. I thought about him and then hit the send button. I suddenly felt my body moving rapidly into darkness. The feeling of motion in one direction continued and in front of me I could see psychedelic fractal type patterns forming into circles which then morphed into colorful wormholes that my form was sucked into. This continued for 5 minutes and then I found myself walking down the street in front of my childhood home. I found myself thinking about the environment around me as I normally do, questioning the reality of the situation. It's a very odd feeling in that I know I'm not awake but at the same time the trees, the street and everything around me is just as viable as waking life. The only difference is that I know that I am not in waking life.

I proceeded to walk to the house I grew up in and guy I sought was inside on a computer. When I approached he noticed me and looked out the window of my mom and dad's old room and told me that he saw me. This was interesting because it seems unlikely that it was actually him, so I conclude that my mind must have been creating the entire thing. Another possibility might be that it was him but my perception was way off and my mind was filling in the gaps the best it could and perhaps with time my perception will get better. I walked through the wall of the house and stuck my hand through the monitor screen and my hand tingled when I did. I told him I would see him later and focused my attention on travelling to someone else that I currently work with.

I hit the send button again and I felt the movement again just like before. The same colorful patterns appeared and I was travelling for what seemed like about 10 minutes and I ended up in an unfamiliar house at Christmas time. There were several kids opening gifts and they seemed to see me and were talking to me. I don't remember what they were saying but I did tell one of them to remember the moment. I lost interest with this location and decided to try a validation for a member of the astral pulse.

I hit the send button on the blackberry and the movement and color were present. This time I had the sensation that the area around the patterns of color was enormous. I was traveled for several minutes and then faded into a place that seemed to be on the Australian coast line. The only reason I say this is because I appeared in a group of people under this tent like pavilian and they all had Australian accents. They seemed to be filming some sort of recreation of a historical event. I spoke to several of the people and they seemed to be making fun of me somehow, although I forget exactly what they were saying. We moved away from the tent and into a set with a bunch of buildings and this is where I saw the movie cameras and I definitely knew they were filming something. I wish I understood how this event taking place in Australia linked to the person i was seeking to validate for. It really doesn't make much sense to me and I guess I will never know because while there I had this overwhelming urge to travel to an orgy.

I hit the send button again and went through the same patterns as before and ended up in a room of several people having sex. I will not go into details but it was very graphic and I was very tempted. I was there for about a few minutes at most and started willing myself to wake up. Within about 5 seconds I actually felt my self transition into my bed at home in waking life. Once again I chicken out on the orgy scene.

I wish I could remember all of the other places I went but I am grateful recalled at least some of it. Every time I would travel to another location I would be thinking in the back of my mind that the attempt was going to wake me up from the experience like in the past when I tried, but for some reason it worked this time.

There are many aspects of this experience that makes me think that it was just a dream but at the same time I had full waking conscious with all of my waking memories and logic present. I knew my name and the names of the people in waking life that I was attempting to travel to or validate for. I must accept a shattered view of reality if I consider the experience an just a dream because the thoughts and statements of others in the experience were completely random and foriegn to me just as they are in waking life. I can never be sure that anything I experience is not just a creation of my mind. I also knew I was sleeping and was even fearing that I would wake up or lose the experience somehow.

When I woke up it took me 15 minutes to re-associate myself to reality due to the clarity and realness of the experience.

I would be interested in hearing feedback from others on this one.

Lucid Dreaming about Astral Projection - Counts for Something right?

2009-06-01T19:36:00.004-05:00

I hope it does, because lately, it's all I've got. Last night I had another dream about projecting. I'm not sure it would be considered Lucid Dreaming, although I did realize I was dreaming and then project. I can't remember exactly what I was dreaming that was a cue to realize I was in a dream. I just remember realizing it, and then lifting myself through the ceiling and trying to project. Unfortunately, I didn't get anywhere.

I remember a distinct feeling that Chi is stronger together, but I can't remember the context that I heard/thought/felt this in. That's a bit frustrating.

I have to trust that with time, it will get better. I go through the same cycles when I write. There are times when writing flows and it's easy and I write and write and write. There are other times when I feel empty, when ideas are incubating. At those times, part of me feels as though I might never write again, and the other part trusts that it's part of the process. I know that I incubate ideas. The ideas have to pull themselves together within me, and sometimes I just need a rest. Ultimately, I pick up pen and paper again. I've always picked up pen and paper again. I'll be 30 this month, and I've had the same process since I was six and wrote my first poem.

And so, I'll wait, and trust that I will be Astral Projecting again. I'll have lucid dreams to write about. My consciousness must be incubating.

A Dry Month

2009-05-31T16:16:00.010-05:00

I didn't see very much activity this month in the realm of Astral Projection and I'm not sure why. Once again this is not a surprise, I have only been experimenting with Astral Projection for about 5 months. Things that I suspect contributed to the dry spell include too much work at my day job, a two year old that wakes me up constantly and lack of a good strategy.

I am not sure what I can do about work other than to meditate more and learn to put it out of my mind. I will continue working with my 3 year old daughter and hopefully she will start sleeping in her room all night soon and then lastly I want to focus exclusively on the techniques that I am learning in Astral Dynamics going forward.

I am 140 pages into the book and Robert Bruce seems to have intimate knowledge of the underlying science behind Astral Projection and of the energy bodies and chakras. I will not know for sure if it's 100% legit until I have more experience with the system, but it seems reasonable and logical at this point.

I am currently in the early stages of MBA and T.I. which Bruce suggests is the foundation for all of the techniques throughout his book. MBA (Mobile Body Awareness) deals with ones ability to focus body awareness on specific parts of the body while T.I. (Tactile Imaging) is the active use of body awareness to directly stimulate and manipulate the substance of the energy body.

I will continue to meditate and try for OBEs however my goal at this point is to learn Bruce's system inside and out and use it exclusively for awhile and then possibly expand on it in the future. I will continue to post updates of my progress through the Astral Dynamics system.

I am grateful for my successful out of body experiences achieved while using many different techniques learned from literature by Robert Monroe, William Buhlman, Vessen Hopkins, Nicholas Newport and many others. This has proven to me that it's possible and given me the motivation to become more precise and methodical in my approach.

To everyone reading my blog, thanks for reading and good luck on your journey, whatever that journey may be.

Walking into Awareness

2009-05-15T08:55:00.009-05:00

Last night I went to bed late and didn't set the intent to leave my body while I was falling asleep at the beginning of my night. I fell asleep around 12:30 AM shortly after my 3 year old daughter climbed into bed with us.

I woke up at 4;30 AM after having a dream that I was living in and owned the house in Tennessee that I grew up in as a child. I don't understand at the moment why, but several people I work with were living there too. I went and used the restroom and came back to bed and fell asleep.

I woke up again at 6:30 AM and noticed that my arm had been in an awkward position and had waken me up due to poor circulation. I figured that I had enough sleep at this point and set the intent to have an OBE.

I settled into a position and became very still and ran the mantra "I am out of body now" though my head several times until I fell into sleep again. I remember repeating the mantra about 4 times and then found myself walking down an unfamiliar road headed towards my parents house that I had dreamed about and my mind still had recollection of my coworkers and of my previous dream earlier in the night.

While I was walking down the road my awareness was definitely in a dreamlike reactive state at first and then I simply walked into awareness. It's hard to explain this but as I walked down that road everything around me transitioned into waking awareness and became not only clear in my mind but clear in my vision as well. I was seeing things around me with waking clarity and I could not tell if I was OBE or awake. I felt a familiar fear surge through my body as if I was in waking life suffering from some sort of amnesia.

I continued to walk for a few seconds and then my logical brain clicked into place and I knew I could test this reality by attempting to fly. I jumped up off the ground and then while in the air I focused on wanting to fly. I felt a magnetic like force take hold of me and then a movement upwards started off slow and increased in speed until I literally felt the g-forces on my body as I accelerated upwards. I flew up and past the top of the trees and then my awareness shifted again into a knowing that I was either dreaming or was out of my body.

Seconds after I realized I was not in waking life I found myself in bed and I was spinning and had a slight but almost unnoticable vibration or warmth flowing through my body. I tried to hold onto this and project back out but I eventually woke up.

Vision of Pines

2009-05-11T11:52:00.007-05:00

Last night I went to bed late after a rough weekend of Oracle outages at work and didn't expect any out of body experiences. Honestly, I was so tired that I didn't even want to project.

I went to sleep at about 12:30 AM and fell asleep quick. I noticed as I fell asleep that I was visualizing memory impressions of a forest. I tried to hold my self in a trance while falling asleep but it was in vein, I was just too tired.

I was in a dream and I don't remember what the dream was about at this point but at some point I exited the dream and I was in bed and I felt myself falling forward. The sensation felt similar to floating on your stomach in water and then doing a flip forward. I noticed what was going on at this point and became lucid and I took control. I stopped the falling forward sensation by just thinking about it and then made myself spin counter clockwise 360 degrees. Once the spin was complete I felt a release and I knew I was free so I simply rolled out to the left and landed on my feet beside my bed in my projected body.

I didn't have any sight this time so I immediately started asking for clarity and awareness and as I did I noticed I was no longer in my room and that I was in a forest. I could see the outline of pine trees coming into view off in the distance through darkness. This didn't last long and I woke up seconds later and I was in my bed. I really wish that one of these days I would remember returning to my body :).

There wasn't anything else to write about and this was a very short experience, I just want to make sure that every experience is recorded so that I can look for clues, trends or patterns or whatever.

A Series of Events

2009-05-07T12:08:00.008-05:00

Last night I read some more of Astral Dynamics and then it was lights out at 12:30 AM. I focused on breath while falling asleep and repeated the mantra "I am now out of body now" for several minutes and then fell asleep quick.

I slept sound through the night and woke up at 4:30 AM ready to try a meditation / mantra mix technique. I went and used the restroom in preparation and then came back to bed and became very still and turned my focus to breath. When I would breathe in I would think "I am out of body" and as I exhaled I would think "Now..". Any time that my thought would wonder away from the breath or mantra I would pull my awareness back to it. I continued with this process until I fell back to sleep, which was about 10 minutes later.

I woke up at 7:00 AM and repeated the same steps as above. This time I recall my awareness slipping away for a moment and I was over a sink washing my hands and then suddenly I was yanked back out of this awareness and into my physical body and the vibrations were present and fading. They quickly disappeared and I started the process over at about 7:30 AM.

I stayed focused for another 5 - 10 minutes and all of the sudden I found myself in the elevator leading up to my office at work. I was floating in the top back right hand corner of the elevator looking down at 3 women who were going up. I heard a snap and I released from the corner and floated out though the elevator doors and down into the lobby on the first floor. I lost awareness at this point and found myself back in bed with the vibratiosn fading. They completely faded away and I once again started the process over again at about 8:00 AM.

I focused on breath and the same mantra again for about an hour solid and finially a surge of energy entered my head and the vibrations spread into my body. I felt as though I was expanding this time and that my body was getting bigger. I tried to deepen the trance but I ended up waking up. It was a few minutes after 9 at this point and I was too wide awake to try again.

It seems that I may have had several out of body experiences this morning but it's difficult to really tell. Again, I feel like there are some gaps in my memory and that any success that I may have had I was not able to retain the memory of it. For example, what else happened between 7:00 AM and 7:30 AM and between 7:30 Am and 8:00 AM? I can only account for a few minutes.

I have had some great success with the meditation / mantra mix in the past. I will continue to use this technique and read Astral Dynamics and I'll see where it leads me to next. Hopefully there are some pointers regarding memory retention in the chapters to come.

Astral Dynamics

2009-05-06T09:23:00.010-05:00

I have been dry in the area of Astral Projection over the last 9 days. This is not surprising to me when I stop and consider that I have only been practicing for the last four months of my entire life (that I can remember) which is just a fart in the wind in comparison to others.

Along my journey I have had a dozen consciously induced out of body experiences and I have also read over a thousand pages on the subject between Robert Monroe's entire collection, William Buhlman's Adventures Beyond the Body, Matt Jones' Lucidology videos and Vessen Hopkins' Vehram System. These were very good resources and I highly recommend that people read and study them all. There is however one book that I have been wanting to read more than all other books and it's called Astral Dynamics by Robert Bruce. I was saving the best for last.

I picked up the book last week from my friends over at Whole Life Books here in Austin. I've read the first 4 chapters which is about 80 pages into the 600 page book and I must admit that it's very good.

When reading Monroe's books he would always talk and re-entry and about the bodies that he would see hovering next to his body that mirrored his own. Monroe never really went into much detail about this but in this book it is thoroughly explained within the first 100 pages and I am sure this is just skimming the suface of what's in the book.

He also explains a concept called "Mind-Split". Which literally means that your consciousness exists and is fully functional in two or more different bodies at once. He also touches on a subject that I posted in one of my previous blog entries about remembering OBEs. He states that most people have successful OBEs but think they are failing at it because they don't remember that it ever happened. I guess this would be a partial failure still, but knowing this and overcoming it is worth the price that I paid for the book alone.

I will continue reading this beast of a book over the next few weeks and put this new information into play and see if I can shorten the gap between OBEs. Make sure to check back soon as I should have some pretty cool experiences to write about and possibly some great advice.

Astral Projection - Went Nowhere

2009-04-28T10:55:00.004-05:00

Last night's experience was pretty frustrating. I've been reading Astral Dynamics by Robert Bruce and working through some of the energy work. Last night I spent time focusing energy in my feet. Basically following this tutorial for the toes and feet:

http://www.astraldynamics.com/tutorials/new-energy-ways/feet-leg-development.html

My feet immediately started tingling, so I figured I already have a good store of energy there but I went through the exercises anyway.

I was tired last night, so I didn't even intend to try to project. I just went off to sleep around 11 or so. Sometime in the middle of the night I woke up and felt that I could lift out of my body. I willed myself out but I wasn't able to see or do anything. I assume I tried too early. Next time that happens, I think I'll just wait a while instead of immediately trying.

The Strange Transition

2009-04-27T07:55:00.013-05:00

My wife came home early yesterday because of thunderstorms in the forecast to avoid the risk driving home in the rain. My plan last night was to lay down at 10 PM, wake up at 4 PM, read for 30 minutes and then use a timer to have some OBEs. The best part of this plan was that my family would be out of town and I would have no distractions, but that's alright. I am glad to have them back home safe and sound and plus it's probably better to practice in the environment that I will be in 99% of the time.

I got in bed at 10:15 PM and fell asleep listening to Brain Sync - Brain Massage. I woke up automatically at 4 AM and noticed that I had been sweating heavily and that my 3 year old daughter was in the bed with me and my Wife. I got up and used the restroom and then came back to bed but I was irritated because I had very little room in my bed. I tried to move my daughter over and my Wife woke up and took her to her own bed and stayed in there with her. I then put an earbud in the ear that was not on the pillow and loaded the saltcube rhythm napping timer ramp with a 4 minute base and laid back down waited for a sign.

I don't remember any imagery, vibrations, sleep paralysis or anything that would indicate that I had transitioned to an out of body state. What got my attention was that I found myself being extra paranoid and I kept sitting up in bed and looking down the hall to see if someone was coming to stab me. This went on for what seemed like 30 minutes and I couldn't shake it. Finally the alarm clock on the nightstand next to me started going off (which must have been the sleep timer). I was trying to turn it off when I noticed that there was a lamp and that water was running down the inside of the lamp shade and splashing on the nightstand. It then dawned on me that a) I don't have a lamp on the nightstand and b) I was not in waking life anymore.

I instantly sat up in bed and noticed that I was out of my body and apparently had been for a while. I collected my senses and asked for clarity and awareness and things around me got very sharp and detailed. I walked slowly out of the room, down the hall, down the stairs and out into the living room. Everything seemed to be in place so I walked outside to what should have been the back patio on the North side of our house.

When I got outside I noticed that I was not in my backyard. There was a small hill in front of me that lead up to a road that was running parallel to the north side of the house. There were pine trees scattered on both sides of the road and across the street was an old ranch style house that seemed to be like half house and half shop of some sort.

I walked up the hill and out into the street and I was amazed at how crystal clear my vision was. I found myself staring at the bark on the pine trees as I passed by them as I walked down the road. This is hard to explain but I was having to be careful not to stare too long at the bark because I felt like I would actually become the bark.

While walking down the road I remembered what I had come to do and that was to validate for someone. This is when things got strange. This woman who appeared to be in her late 20s came walking out of the house across the street and straight up told me that she wanted to have sex with me. I remember being very tempted and surprised at the same time. How could she be so bold?

I told her that I couldn't and that I had to go. I continued walking down the road and I stopped and looked around. I remember thinking about how amazing it was that I was out of my body and seeing things with such clarity. I did some sanity checks while standing there. I was asking myself things like "I live at blah location in real life and my name is David Mathis". I was happy at this point and I knew that my waking awareness was present. I then started asking and almost demanding that I travel to the location of the person that I was trying to validate for. When I did this the imagery I was seeing just faded away and I was laying awake in my bed.

I have learned a couple of things here. It seems that every time that I attempt to travel to a specific person I always fail. Maybe I am not experienced enough yet? I have also learned that the timer method is highly effective.

Accidentally Astral

2009-04-26T10:19:00.004-05:00

My husband, David, has been experimenting with Astral Projection for a while now and even though I have known of OBEs for over 10 years, I never seriously attempted to envoke any such experience. It is not because I do not believe it is possible or because I am fearful of what I find. I have always known other planes of conciousness exist from personal experiences I have had in my past that had nothing to do with OBEs. Mostly have been from dreams or occurences in my every day life that were too out of the ordinary to be just coincidence.

David has been trying to get me experience what he has experienced for quite some time. But, having a 3 year old who wakes up about 2-4 times a night makes true relaxation somewhat difficult. I know he wants someone close to him to experience the same things so that our bond can become closer but my attempts have always been inturrupted by our child and then I am too tired to really try.

As David posted earlier , my daughter and I have been away from home since Wednesday. We have been staying with my mother 2 hours away helping her recoup from abdominal surgery. Her husband works and I decided to come help her out a few days until she was able to get around her apartment a little easier.

My mom and her husband live in a very small one bedroom apartment so Julia and I have been sleeping on her couch. Last night, after Julia fell asleep, I tossed and turned (as much as possible when you are sleeping on a recliner) until I finally went to sleep at 12 30 in the morning. I woke up several hours later around 3 AM and tried to go back to sleep and woke up again at about 4:30 AM when Julia got up and started to get upset when she thought she was alone in the room. After I calmed her down and put her back to bed, I attempted to fall asleep again.

It was at that time that I began to notice a tingling feeling in my fingers and toes. I attributed it to laying in the recliner and not having the best place to really stretch out. It continued to grow and I remember thinking to myself, ' Hmm I wonder if this is what it feels like when you begin to have an OBE' . I decided to try what David had mentioned many times to me. I began to tell myself that I was going to get out of my body. I kept repeating that over and over and over, almost in a demanding, direct way. As soon as I thought that , for about 2 seconds I felt this overwhelming surge of energy begin at my feet and wash over my entire body. It traveled so quickly, it was not until after it was over me that I realized what it was.

Almost immediately after this surge of energy, I began to hear this rumbling sound in my ears. It was like nothing I had ever heard before. The best way to experience this phenomenon in waking life is to do this easy and fast experiement I learned in High School Human Anatomy class. Put your thumbs in your ears and clench your hands as tightly as you can. You will hear a faint rumbling noise that gets stronger the harder you clench your hands. The low rumbling noise is caused by the contraction of your forearm muscles. The sounds that you hear are very similar to what I heard last night but only they were much MUCH louder. I would say about 20 times louder. Loud enough to drown out the ticking of the clock and the chimes on my mother's porch.

Once I heard that sound , I knew exactly what was going on. As soon as I became aware of what was occuring I began to get an image come in and out of focus. I did not know what it was at first but as I began to ask for clarity, the image began to come into clear focus. I saw a set of small orange hands on the wall and a yellow floating mass. I thought to myself ' This is that whole transparent eyelid thing!' I cannot remember the exact term I had heard but I knew that was what I was experiencing. Then, for whatever reason I cannot explain I began to panic. I remembered the phenomenon of the "Observer" and I chickened out. I began to try to wake my body up and tried to wave my hands and arms to wake myself up. My eyes just popped open as if I had not been asleep at all. Then, I realized I had not moved my arms or hands at all. I can only assume I had moved my Astral arms and hands as my hands and arms were rested just as I had left them.

The first thing I did was sit up and look around the living room to see if I could identify these mysertious orange hands and yellow floating mass. I looked across the room and realized what I had been seeing. The orange hands were an art project my nephew had done for my mother where he imprinted his hands on a paper with that traditional "Handprints" poem that almost all of us at one point in our childhood have done for our parents or grandparents.

The yellow floating mass was nothing more then the yellow smiley face balloon attached to the flower arrangement my mother's co-workers had given to her for a "Get well soon" gift while she was in the hospital.

After all was said and done, I was rather dissapointed with myself. I had allowed fear of the unknown to get the best of me at such a critical turning point! Goes to show me that even though we may say we accept the idea of other astral planes and the ability to experience them, when it comes to actually doing it yourself, you dont know how you will react.

This accidental experience has peaked my curiousity. I think it is safe to say that I will be attempting to recreate my experience in the future. And next time, maybe I wont chicken out!

No Cigar

2009-04-25T09:26:00.005-05:00

I didn't actually have an OBE but some interesting things happened in the absence of distractions.

I woke up at 6 AM and tried for an OBE by using the affirmation "I am out of body, now" over and over. The problem was that I was itching and lost my focus. I remember trying to ignore the itch and I fell back to sleep.

I woke back up at 8:30 AM and began using the same affirmation again. I would breathe in while thinking "I am out of body" and then breathe out thinking "now". At the same time I was creating the sensation of getting heavy while keeping my focus directed at my out breath. I know all of that seems like a lot but it really flows naturally.

What happened was that I would begin to see image impressions. I would then feel a surge of energy and the noise in my room would disappear and I would have no hearing and then the room noise would fade back in. This repeated like 5 times but unfortunately I realized that I was too lucid complete it.

Today at 1 PM I will try for an afternoon OBE and see what I come up with. It's becoming clear that time of day is indeed a critical component to achieving success, at least in this stage of my development.

Semi-Lucid Dream - Smashing the Awning

2009-04-24T10:23:00.009-05:00

Last night was the first night in a while that I was able to sleep unobstructed for the entire night. My Wife and my Daughter are currently out of town for the next 5 days so I am hoping to have several lucid dreams and out of body experiences to write about in the days to come. I actually had a semi-lucid dream last night and would like to write about it simply because I have been in this dream locale before. I am going to start writing about any dream locales that I seem to have a memory of in the past.

It was lights out at 11:30 PM last night and I had the entire king size bed to myself. I put on the "Hemi-Sync - Intro to Focus 10" and kept my eyes still and was asleep in less than 5 minutes. I slept very sound and woke up at 7:30 AM and my headphones were laying next to me. I had recall of my dreams at this point but lost that recall after I fell asleep again.

I got up to use the restroom and came back to bed quite alert and decided to use the eye trick again to see if I could slip back off into dream. Within 5 minutes I was asleep and I found myself in a familiar dream environment that I know I have been in before. I was in a long bathroom standing at a urinal doing my business and out of the corner of my right eye behind me I noticed that the toilet was actually under the divider wall and not actually "in" the stall as it should have been. The memory of being in this location before triggered my lucidity.

I notice that there was this dark red liquid in all of the urinals around me and there was body parts such as severed legs and arms laying all over the floor. I notice that these body parts were animated and flopping around and before I could move away from the urinal some of the red liquid splashed out of the toilet next to me and hit my leg. I backed away and at the same time some human shaped form emerged from the stall. I got the feeling that this "thing" didn't realize that I was lucid and it started walking towards me and I immediately headed for the door. As I was walking out the door it smeared some of the red liquid across the side of my face and then followed me outside.

I was thinking to myself that this liquid was some type of poison or possibly worse but at the same time I felt something surge through me and I lost all fear. I was losing my lucidity at this point and I was feeling like I was being more reactive than objective. My next reaction was to fly away from this thing and off into the sky I went. Almost instantly my awareness of this thing disappeared.

I would like to briefly describe the method by which I fly in non lucid dreams because it's the same every time. I will jump up off the ground and then while in the air I have to focus on wanting to fly and then I will either fly or I will have to try again. When it works I feel some magnetic force take hold of me and it's like I am on an invisible elevator. The movement upwards starts off slow and the increases in speed and I can literally feel the g-forces on my body as I accelerate upwards. While moving upwards I always keep my eyes looking down watching the objects on the ground getting smaller so I can gauge when to stop. When I reach the desired elevation I almost always have the emotion that a person would have when they learn something new (like riding a bicycle) and I want to tell family and friends about it.

I continued flying and I passed through an arched bridge and found myself approaching an unfamiliar cabin with an aluminum awning and I "just knew" one of my friends was inside. I will not disclose who it was but as I mentioned above I wanted to show them my new skill. I went inside and dragged them outside and then used the method above and flew up 1000 feet and then floated back down and landed in front of them. They seemed to be shocked, amazed and confused all at the same time. I have no idea why I thought they weren't interested because I was not lucid, but their reaction didn't meet my expectations so I did the same thing again but this time instead of floating down I just let myself fall down towards the metal awning and then landed on it hard making my leg pierce the awning putting a 2 foot hole in it.

I took off into the sky again and landed in a tree beside the cabin and I noticed someone else was with my friend. I heard them tell my friend that they would take care of me and I noticed that this person was growing stronger and bigger muscularly kind of like the hulk.

He started walking toward the tree I was in and I remember laughing out load and telling the guy that his magic tricks didn't scare me and I simply though about becoming bigger and stronger and morphed into a similar form and dropped out of the tree in front of him.

I remember the guy trying to stab me, but I blocked the attempt with some of the moves I learned in Krav Maga and then stripped the knife out of the guys hand and stabbed him several times with it.

The dream ended after this. I think this clearly demonstrates the drastic difference between one of my normal dreams and the out of body descriptions I have posted on here before. I have no idea what this dream was about, only that I have been in that bathroom before in previous dreams.

Lucid Dreaming - Is it possible to Astral Project through computers?

2009-04-23T12:14:00.004-05:00

I'm pretty sure within this experience last night, I was lucid dreaming, which then switched to astral projection. I'm planning to get new ear buds for my mp3 player today, so that I can use the timer starting tonight and hopefully have more progress with lucid dreaming, so I haven't been trying much really. Last night I sort of half-focused on the mantra in the first technique shown in the post below this one. Basically, on exhale thinking "girrr", next exhale thinking "tiiii", and then "taakkk" until sleeping.

I didn't actually think it would help with lucid dreaming, since I've had no luck at all with anything lately. I did end up with a lucid dream though so maybe there's something to it, afterall.

When I realized I was lucid dreaming, I immediately decided to project. I wanted to go to my old hometown, so I thought about it and felt like I was moving somewhere, but somehow ended up in a room with computer screens. There were monitors on the wall with various websites I've visited. I lost control at that point because our 21 month old kicked me in the side and I woke up.

I'm wondering though, if I could have astral projected through those computer monitors. I'd like to go back and check into that. Lucid dreaming is a lot of fun. I'm hoping to have more to blog about once my mp3 player is functional again.

66 Astral Projection Techniques

2009-04-22T21:12:00.007-05:00

My friend found this and I thought it may be helpful to others. I have not seen some of these techniques so if you have success with any of these please share.

66 Astral Projection Techniques 66 Astral Projection Techniques camposentertainment@yahoo.com

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Staring at Myself

2009-04-15T07:20:00.011-05:00

My goal last night was simple. I was to go to bed at 9 PM and then wake up around 2 - 5 AM and begin listening to the saltcube rhythm napping timer ramp with a 4 minute base. The track is 2 hours and 12 minutes and can be found in the new Vol. 2 saltcude series at lucidology.com. My plan was to use these timers to have a series of OBEs so that I can get used to astral projection and how it feels. The new series builds on the previous series and is very complex and advanced for my level. Having a series of short OBEs might not be profound but I have plently of time for that and I think I should be taking baby steps at this point.

I actually got in bed around 9:30 PM and then automatically woke up at 2 AM after setting the intent. I started the timer and then struggled for what seemed like an hour trying to block out distractions. I then decided to use some of the advanced visualization techniques that I watched in the new series last night and within minutes I felt a wave of energy surge through me really quickly. This energy didn't feel like vibrations at all, it was similar to goose bumps.

I wasn't sure if I was free from the physical so I sat up in bed and looked down at the pillow to see if I was still laying on it and to my delight I was! It was the classic OBE, I was sitting up in bed looking at my sleeping body with my physical body and astral body overlapping at the hip. The most incredible part of this was the fact that I could hear my physical body breathing and I was not controlling it at all. It was the most amazing thing ever. I literally sat and stared at my body sleeping for at least 5 minutes. This kind of goes against the "don't think about your body" scenario that pulls you back in.

I finally decided to move away from the bed and by simply thinking about it I was instantly standing by the door leading out of the room. I started walking down the hall and for the first time I had the urge to look down at my astral arm. It was solid black, like looking off into space. I then reached out and touched the wall and expected my arm to pass through it but it didn't, instead I felt the texture of the wall moving across my hand as I moved.

I continued downstairs and when I got there it was not my current living room, it was the living room of my ex-girlfriend's old rental house from 2001. I got kinda pissed at that point because she was a total bitch that hung me out to dry in 2003 when I went into the hospital. I decided that I needed to leave.

I remembered that there are people in waking life who want validations so I tried to focus on their faces one at a time but I was not able to go anywhere. I gave up and started looking for a door out of there and sure enough, the same door that was there in 2001 was right there waiting on me. I could see very bright light bursting through the cracks around the door and I knew that if I opened it, I would be blinded. I started walking towards the door and the room started getting darker. I commanded clarity and awareness but the experience faded out and I woke up.

I think this is very good progress and I look forward to hearing feedback

The Bird Dream

2009-04-11T08:36:00.012-05:00

Each night I have been setting the intention that I will remember my dreams and my out of body experiences. Last night I had several dreams that I remember vividly and one in particular seemed to be symbolic.

Upon falling back asleep after waking up at 4 AM I found myself in an large unfamiliar city with my younger brother who current lives a thousand miles away in waking life. We were standing in the front yard of this house that I am very familiar with because I have seen this same house in my dreams before.

The house is located on a corner lot in a run down industrial part of town under some large oak trees. The lot exists on a slope and there's a street to the left of it and then extending up the hill to the right there are more houses. Across the street in front of the house there is a valley and then more industrial type buildings within it.

My brother and I were standing on the walkway leading up to the front door of the house close to the street out front. We were facing the street on the left side of the house and could see many run down industrial type buildings, some of which seemed empty.

We were lost and were trying to get home. I am not sure where home actually was but we were trying to get there. At first I thought we could just walk around until we found home but then I realized that I had an iPhone in my pocket and that it had GPS.

Once again I don't recall in the dream actually knowing where home was but for some reason this didn't seem to matter so I plotted the route home within the phone and we began walking.

A considerable amount of time passed. I have no knowledge of how we got to this place but we ended up on a road that was leading up a ridge and on our left was a deep ravine. The industrial buildings were now directly behind us at the bottom of the ridge off in the distance. We were still on our journey home but the mood had changed and we were growing tired because the journey was too long and we were not close to home.

I remember sitting next to my brother looking at the route on the phone and the estimated time to reach the destination was 20 days.

My brother looked over at me like I was an idiot and said "What way was the bird facing when you plotted that route?" I was confused at this point.

He then pulled a small bird out of a backpack and handed it to me. He told me that the GPS would not work without the bird. He went on to explain that if the starting point was A and the destination was B and then the route in the iPhone was plotted from A to B but the bird's beak was facing A, then the iPhone would automatically try everything that it could to get back to A while planning a route to B. He then told me to point the bird towards B and to watch.

I physically turned the bird's beak so that it was facing our destination B and he took the iPhone and planned out the route again and the estimated time to destination dropped to 20 minutes.

He then looked at me and smiled and said, "See, now you understand that birds are the gateway into the spirit world."

The dream ended.

Chapel of Sacred Mirrors

2009-04-07T12:36:00.015-05:00

I really don't search for these things, they just show up most of the time. The same friend that subtly mentioned astral projection to me over a ten year span suggested that I watch a movie called Chapel of Sacred Mirrors.

The movie is about the progress of the soul as depicted through the art work and narration of an artist by the name of Alex Grey who I had remarkably never heard of.

He starts out by reviewing the human anatomy and then moves on to energy systems and how they merge together with the physical. He explores first incarnation, birth, life, spiritual enlightenment, death, the place after we die before we are reborn and then reincarnation.

Below I have selected a painting from the later part of the movie. His painting here describes a point in our progress where we see past our constricted egos and consider not only our collective consciousness on this planet but our cosmic consciousness and interconnectedness with the vast galactic web.

This movie is a great example of how the universe can speak through the physical when a person has a passion for what they do and they open their mind to their inner self. The artwork is breathtaking, inspiring and insightful. This is another movie that I highly recommend.

You will find a link to the DVD under my recommended products or the movie can be watched on google by clicking here.

Spirit Space

2009-04-05T12:36:00.015-05:00

It's my current belief that thoughts and intention literally create the universe around us. I should also mention that my version of the universe is more than stars, galaxies, physical matter, observable phenomenon and the vastness of space. It's my opinion that the physical / tangible universe may only be 0.00000000000001% of the actual universe, and that's assuming it's finite.

Needless to say I am constantly setting intentions throughout each day and one of these intentions is to experience and understand nonphysical dimensions of my existence though expanded awareness into non local areas of my existence. Sometimes these intentions are answered by giving me direct communication or contact with these areas and other times it seems that the universe simply presents me with new reading material, a new documentary or perhaps a new friend or person in my life that has information to share on the subject. Last week the universe sent me a new movie called Spirit Space through my Wife's facebook account.

I have been telling people lately that I no longer follow any established religion and instead I follow my own path which is not of faith but of direct fluctuating experience. Spirit Space is comprised of a similar group of scientific and spiritual experts who have also decided to walk their own path.

The cast; Miguel Ruiz, Laurie Monroe, Dr. Fred Alan Wolf, Linda Gabriel, Dr. Linda Backman, Dr. Edgar Mitchell and F.Holmes "Skip" Atwater delve into areas such as the soul, consciousness, belief systems, astral projection, out of body experiences, past lives, quantum physics, human evolution and what happens to us after we die.

The message I took away from this film is that we all have the ability to experience things beyond that of which our physical bodies perceive and that organized religions are nothing more than part of the overall truth which is created by our thoughts. It was very refreshing to see this type of film because it indicates to me that there is an awakening that's taking place which suggests that humans and animals are evolving as physical beings into purely spiritual beings.

I highly recommend this film for anyone who has an open mind and is searching for the truth through experience rather than just science and religion. The movie is 20 bucks and I have added a link to it under my "Recommended Products" on the left.

Lucid Dreams Are Better Than Nothing

2009-04-05T08:54:00.021-05:00

It's been the same story over the last 2 weeks. I have been overworked and dealing with my 3 year old daughter who wants to crawl into our bed 3 or 4 times a night. I can't seem to find the focus and relaxation needed to project.

I have been using my using my Performer 2400 Chi Generator and a new program called Super Manifestation to supercharge my intents and make my thoughts become reality. The program allows me to enter targets (Me and my Wife) and then a series of intentions (astral projection, lucid dreams, etc) and then the program is then linked to my Chi Generator via a unique transfer image. This technique allows the targets I choose to get bombarded with intentions through life force energy (action at a distance) continuously, day or night.

This diagram illustrates the concept.

Perhaps distraction is not the only reason I have been unable to project. I have been thinking that maybe it's a failure to recall events that have taken place. My assumption here lately is that I am indeed having lucid dreams and non physical experiences each night but I am simply forgetting them. Therefore one intention that I entered into the program is that I will remember.

Last night was the same ordeal, I could not get relaxed and my daughter woke me up about 3 times. The difference was that I actually had a normal dream that transitioned into a lucid dream. I don't want to say I was having and "Out of Body" experience because this didn't feel the same as my previous experiences.

It was about 3 AM and my daughter had just crawled into bed and I quickly drifted back off to sleep. I was dreaming about something but I don't recall exactly what and then found myself walking through a dark city street. It was so dark that I could barely see anything at all. I think that this darkness brought awareness to me because I wanted to see and that sparked the logic side of my brain and I realized that I was dreaming. I immediately began to shout out "CLARITY AND AWARENESS NOW!" over and over. I could clearly hear my voice in the dream and my waking thoughts suddenly became present. Within 10 seconds the street lit up as bright as day and I could see. This lasted for about a minute and then I fell back into normal dream.

I don't know exactly what this dream means or what happened other than the fact that it wasn't a normal dream. I will continue to use the program and will report back any results.

Lucid Dream

2009-03-26T08:11:00.004-05:00

Didn't have any last night, but the night before I did. It's a bit blurry now, but I remember the basics.

I realized I was in the dream state by noticing my old house. That seems to happen a lot. We lived in that house from the time I was 15 or so until I graduated college, so it's the main old house in my head.

Once I recognized that I was dreaming, the whole room started to go blurry. I sat down and repeated "clarity now, focus now" until it cleared up. First, I tried to fly. I flew up and banged my head on the ceiling. No problem, I'll just fly through the wall, right? Wrong. I tried to fly through the wall, and ran into it. Apparently, sometimes even in lucid dreams, you just have to use the front door.

I went out the front door and wandered around. The scenery wasn't anything like that around my old house. This was very obviously a dream, and not projecting. I wandered through woods until I got to crocodiles in a sewer. Last time I checked, Chattanooga doesn't have crocodiles in the sewers, so I'm pretty sure they're not really there. I then willed myself to fly up.

That's where my memory stops. I think maybe the baby woke me again after that and it ended.

What I've taken away from this is the following:

1. My old house is one of my signs that I'm dreaming.
2. You can't always fly through the walls even in a dream.
3. It isn't always a bad thing when your 18 month old wakes you every hour.

Projection without control - Or a vivid dream?

2009-03-24T08:07:00.003-05:00

Our 18 month old has been having sleep issues, so I've been awake every hour or so the last couple of nights. It's a bit annoying because I'm still tired in the morning, but it does give me a chance to try to project. Mostly, I've had no success. I'm more of a project out of a lucid dream person, rather than consciously projecting.

Last night, this morning, I think around six or so, I managed to project and push myself through the window to the outside. I really wasn't able to control much of anything I experienced, so it's possible it was a clear dream. Whatever it was, I attempted to picture places to go, but couldn't figure out how to get there.

I floated by a lot of different people, didn't know any of them. I was also able to finally name a place, push myself through a book and end up there. I flew over the ocean, felt at peace, but then got pulled back.

I don't consider it a failure. I was able to control it slightly, and just the fact that I managed to project or lucid dream either one, after several nights of failing to do anything, gives me hope that I can get this thing figured out eventually.

The Vehram Energy System

2009-03-19T07:17:00.019-05:00

Yesterday I woke up early to get ready for work. I was slightly rushed because my friend (co-worker) was waiting at the auto mechanic garage for me to pick him up. In my haste I left the Performer 2400 chi generator on the lucid dreaming frequency of 0.5 HZ all day with the "Gateway Affirmation" running on a trend. This may or may not have been responsible for my discovery of the "The Vehram Energy System".

Later in the day after work I was out on the Astral Pulse forum and noticed a new post about the "The Vehram Energy System". When I first looked at the title I almost dismissed it as some crazy experience or place on the astral planes with a strange name. My curiosity got the best of me so I opened the post and started reading and I quickly realized that the author had stumbled onto something unique. He was describing a book about an energy system that he was pulling energy from to create his second body and astral project. I didn't understand much of what he was describing but it piqued an interest so bought the book and began reading.

I finished reading the book at approximately 8:30 PM and then went to bed around 9:30 PM. I fell asleep at 10:30 PM while running the mantra "I will wake up at 3:00 AM" through my until I fell asleep.

Sure enough I woke at 1:15 AM which is my normal 3:15 AM because normally go to sleep around 12 AM. I began the breathing technique outlined in the book and created the sensation of getting heavy as described. I continued this for about a minute and then I clearly remember passing into the hypnagogic state. My body got heavy and I felt my body lose the ability to move and I was left in a totally paralyzed state

While laying in blackness I did exactly what the book suggests. I willed energy from the Vehram array and directed that energy into my body and within less then a second very strong vibrations consumed me.

I was not able to exit at first so I relaxed and then rolled out to the left side and found myself standing next to my bed. Everything was all distorted at first so I asked for total awareness and clarity and almost instantly I was seeing the room and the house EXACTLY how it is in waking life.

I made a conscious effort to stay as close to the physical world as possible this time and then I walked down stairs, through the closed front door and outside. I continued walking until I was out in the street in front of my house. I turned and looked northeast towards downtown Austin which is 6 miles away and hidden behind trees. I commanded my vision to zoom in on the skyline and instantly I could see the buildings with crystal clarity. I was completely amazed by this new ability and was very excited. I looked down at the street and I could see every detail of the pavement.

Next I turned and faced southwest because I remembered once again that I told my friend that I would visit him next time I was out of body for validation purposes. I started imagining his face and for some reason I felt a rushing and could not stay focused. I woke up and it was 1:20 AM. I went down stairs and wrote up a skeleton version of this and then went back to bed to try again.

This new found system seems to work very well and I really don't know what to think about it yet. I would like to do some validations and then report back my findings. I have added a link to the vehram.com site on the left and I recommend spending the 10 dollars for it. It's worth it.

Hell in the Pacific

2009-03-17T09:46:00.005-05:00

This will be a short post inspired by a three hour philisophical discussion, in which a man of strong religious beliefs who I have great respect for tried to sway me into his belief system. We discussed "The Ultimate Truth", and how religions or the lack of religion fit into the search for it. I will not disclose which religion or who I discussed this with, as it is not relevant to this blog entry.

When I was younger, one of my favorite movies was "Hell in the Pacific", which tells the story of two men, one American and one Japanese, marooned on a small uninhabited island in the Pacific. They survive by accepting their differences and working together, despite the fact that their two countries are at war. At the end of the movie, after calling a truce, a magazine brings their conversation back to religion and war and therefore ending the truce and they begin fighting again. Minutes later a bomb lands on them and blows them to pieces. Last night's discussion reminded me of this movie.

Our main disagreement stemmed from a hypothetical person who chooses a predefined organized religious path versus one who simply chooses his own path and how this choice will ultimately lead to "The Ultimate Truth". The one thing that we both agreed on, is that neither of our beliefs or paths made sense to the other.

My current observation is that there may or may not be an "Ultimate Truth"; however, my logical but currently limited human brain tells me that there most likely is. What doesn't make sense about all of this is when a person expects his religion to make sense to others and tries to force it on them. Based on the information I have collected, no one knows what the "Ultimate Truth" is or even if it exists. There are various religions of various popularity, spread across virtually every culture, all attempting to discover "The Ultimate Truth."

My personal belief is that Earth and humans are a VERY small part of the overall picture, and confining oneself to one physical world, or even worse, to one religion, will limit one who chooses to do so. Be happy if you have found your path, even if it is a limiting path. It's fine to share your discoveries with others, but realize that not everyone will be or will want to be on that same path and all paths may "Ultimately" lead to the same truth in one form or another.

It seems that the truth gets lost in interpretation, or perhaps the truth IS the interpretations which exist in religious silos. It's possible that the "Ultimate Truth" lies in the absence of any interpretation. I think that the key here is to respect others for what they believe even if it doesn't make sense to you, because it's very likely that what you believe doesn't make sense to them either, and that's ok.

The False Awakenings

2009-03-15T08:47:00.028-05:00

Last night I got into bed around 11:00 PM. I read a chapter of Monroe's book "Journeys out of the Body", laid down and relaxed, put on my head phones and started listening to the Tibetan Chakra Meditation tracks. I started repeating the mantra "I am now out of body" in my head and fell asleep after about five iterations. I woke up at about 6:00 AM and noticed that the headphones had fallen off at some point during the night. I quickly fell back to sleep while running the same mantra through my head.

I woke up at 7:50 AM and noticed that my daughter was in the bed with me and my wife. I was doubtful that I would be able pull off an OBE because she moves around a lot. I decided to give it a try anyway so I closed my eyes and began the same mantra, "I am now out of body" over and over while I tried not to move. Suddenly I began to feel myself spinning at a rapid rate on an axis that ran through my head and out the bottom of my feet. Ten seconds later light vibrations hit me and I instinctively just relaxed more and told myself "enjoy the ride". The vibrations then got more intense and seemed to last about 2 minutes and then faded.

The vibrations completely disappeared and I noticed that I was floating in blackness with partial awareness. I felt like I was in a half dream state. I began running the words "clarity and awareness now" over and over and after about 5 iterations I actually started saying it out loud. I continued to say this and I could hear myself very clearly asking for clarity and awareness and thought I was going to wake up my wife and daughter. Suddenly the blackness slowly started fading and I actually felt my analytical mind attach to my state of consciousness and I am standing in a field and in front of me was a huge bright tree. Everything was so vivid and clear I felt the urge to fly and explore. I flew higher and higher and I began to think about the ocean and the landscape turned into ocean. I was soaring and I remembered that in life I am scared of heights, so I told myself to go higher and higher so that I could face my fear. I arrived at what I perceived as to be 5000 feet over the water and I felt some fear surge though me, but I was able to push it away and climb higher.

While I was flying and enjoying complete freedom I remembered that I told my friend from work that I would visit him next time I was out of body. He is skeptical and I wanted to give him some validation. I started imagining his face but I must not have asked the universe right because I asked to see him over and over and nothing but a very slight change in speed occurred.

I lost interest and reduced altitude and was very close to the surface of the water. The ocean then morphed into a wide river and I continued to skim across it about a foot from the surface. I heard a voice that said I had not experienced everything and then suddenly felt myself begin to go under the water. I wasn't ready and clearly noticed a change in awareness.

I woke, sat up and looked at the alarm clock and noticed that it displayed 9 AM. The first thing that entered my mind was that I needed to write down what had happened. Our bedroom is upstairs and my laptop is downstairs so I got out of bed and headed towards my laptop. I noticed that while walking down the hall that leads to the the stairs that everything was reversed. When I got to the stairs they were not right either. They looked like my stairs, but the distance that each step extended was inconsistent. Some extended about 5 inches out and others one foot. I "walked" down stairs and when I got there I noticed that the TV was gone and everything was packed up in boxes. My wife came down behind me and I felt a sense of fear come over me as if I had forgotten that we had packed and were in the process of moving. I began to panic because the events were so real and I felt as though I was losing my mind. Once again I felt a change in my awareness.

I woke up again. I noticed that the right side of my face was not working. I could not see out of my right eye. The right side of my head was literally inside of the pillow. I got up and looked in the mirror and blood was running down my moustache. The blood was dried to the hairs. I looked at my face in the mirror for about a minute in confusion and tried to understand where this blood had come from. I felt another change in my awareness.

I woke up and looked at the clock and it said 8:01 AM. I immediately got out of bed and headed for my laptop to write this entry. While I was walking down the stairs I was seriously asking myself if waking life was real or if I was out of body.

In conclusion I don't recall exiting my body this time, the move from physical to nonphysical seemed more like a shift of awareness. Perhaps the intense spinning threw me a distance from my body. I have no idea. It seems that I started out in a half conscious out of body state and then became fully conscious. I then moved into a lucid dream state awareness and had a false awakening. I then had another out of body experience and another false awakening. Finally I moved back to an out of body awareness one final time and then woke up for real. I am definitely back on track.

One last thing that's worth noting is that I was using my Performer 2400 chi generator. I had it set at a lucid dream frequency of 0.5 HZ with the trend set to the "The Gateway Affirmation" which goes like:

I am more than my physical body. Because I am more than physical matter, I can perceive that which is greater than the physical world. Therefore, I deeply desire to Expand, to Experience; to Know, to Understand; to Control, to Use such greater energies and energy systems as may be beneficial and constructive to me and to those who follow me. Also, I deeply desire the help and cooperation, the assistance, the understanding of those individuals whose wisdom, development and experience are equal or greater than my own. I ask their guidance and protection from any influence or any source that might provide me with less than my stated desires.

Lucid Dream - Half-lucid dream?

2009-03-13T20:25:00.002-05:00

I'm not sure what to consider it. This entry won't be long, because I don't remember a lot of details really. I believe that my subconscious was trying to bring me to lucidity, but I didn't quite make it and a dream took over. I have a very vivid image of a night sky, and I know that within the dream, I intended to astral project into it. Before I was able to, or maybe mid-attempt, some people showed up trying to figure out how to get to Knoxville.

I've had lucid dreams, I've projected within lucid dreams, and I've projected intentionally, so when I miss an opportunity it bothers me. I intend to use the vivid image I have of the night sky to practice visualization. Eventually, I will project into that exact area and figure out exactly where I was in the dream.

The lesson I learned from this dream, is that I need to learn to better control my dreams. People aren't just annoying me in the real world anymore, now they annoy me in my sleep too. If telemarketers start calling me in dreams offering me a lower rate on my credit cards, I'm sure you'll read all about it here.

Spirituality versus Religion

2009-03-10T11:22:00.030-05:00

When I met my wife 5 years ago I introduced myself as religious and she introduced herself as spiritual. I considered myself a Catholic at the time and I didn't think very much of it. Then after a few years went by I realized that there is a huge difference between religion and spirituality.

I recently added my blog to a directory in an attempt to share my personal experiences with others and once again I noticed that spirituality was nested under religion. The concept gets tied to a religion and faith on a regular basis and that's fine, however what we see is that while spirituality can stand completely on it's own, religion must be tied to spirituality. Interesting! So why do we need religion?

Recently, by reading about the personal experiences of others and through my own personal experience, meditation and astral projection I came to realize that when I let myself fall into belief systems I only create huge chains which limit my spiritual growth. I let these beliefs dissolve and by doing so I completely liberated myself from the spiritual confusion and suffering that came with the religious ties of the past.

There are several differences that I have noticed between religion and spirituality. The biggest difference is that religion takes a firm stance based on the views and opinions of other people and their perception of events that have taken place. When a religion's participant begins to think outside the box they are considered odd, a sinner or even worse. Spirituality and self discovery "by itself" does none of these things. I find it interesting that in the early days of astronomy the scientific discoveries challenged the views of the church and as a result the church felt threatened. Now in modern times it's ironic that it's all been completely reversed and now everyone is caught up in science, and religion must fit into science. I think that it's time that we open up our minds to new possibilities and focus and how religion and science fit into spirituality and then throw out all of the unnecessary nonsense including the fear and the arguments about things that can't be proven either way.

While I was throwing out the rules you may have guessed, and the guess would be accurate, that I don't believe in a deity these days. So if I don't believe in deity then what do I believe in? I believe in a collective consciousness that consists of love, love possibly being a faint perception of the collective. I have no real religion but I may be a cross between mysticism and esotericism while agreeing with some of the Buddhist philosophies. This brings me to another difference which is religion creates a set of rules to follow while spirituality "by itself" allows one to keep an open mind.

The last difference that I would like to point out is that most religions provide no means of validation. Spirituality "by itself" does. Our awareness in waking life is focused on the physical and during our sleep our awareness detaches from the physical and we face our inner self, our soul. We can train our self to be lucid when we detach from the physical and begin teaching our self to remember. It seems that this will inevitably lead to path of truth and discovery while religion might lead us to an understanding of another person's viewpoint.

In conclusion, it seems that we as the human civilization think that we are advancing at a rapid pace because of cell phones, fancy SUVs and computers. We cling to these physical things, which include our physical body and the ones we love around us. Worst of all we cling to the writings and beliefs of other people, never opening our mind to all of the possibilities presented to us. This ends up restricting us in our ability to choose our own path towards enlightenment and ultimately, recognition of who we really are. There is absolutely nothing wrong with many religions and belief systems but remember that they are exclusionary and limiting. My current view may change, but it appears that it's only when we realize that we are all connected and that we are more than a physical body or even a separate soul that our light as a whole will shine brightly and we will be free. We have the tools that we need, all we have to do is look inward.

My First Kundalini Yoga Experience

2009-03-04T20:41:00.020-06:00

I have been itching to try yoga for the last 2 years and after much research and thinking about it I have decided that kundalini yoga is the style for me. My decision was based on the fact that kundalini deals with the chakras and life force energy and my goal is to ultimately get in better shape and raise energy levels and awareness.

I attended my first class at the Yoga Yoga studio here in Austin at the Westgate location. I didn't go to a beginners series because apparently I like jumping in the deep end without a life preserver and because the teacher of the particular class has great credentials. His name is Gurudev Singh and he has trained with Yogi Bhajan for over 25 years.

The class started off with a quick meditation and a centering where we repeated a mantra several times. I tried very hard to remember this mantra but I just don't remember it. I think it may have been ONG NAMO, GURU DEV NAMO. I will make sure to have the teacher write it down next time.

The next 30 minutes of the class was spent on core strengthening and breathing exercises. I must admit that this got the best of me. I did the best I could and gave it a valiant effort nevertheless. The breathing technique called 'Breath of Fire' was very foreign to me and difficult to say the least. It's a very quick in and out breathing that accompanies each physical exercise and is not natural at all. I made it through the hard part and then we did some relaxing and stretching and moved on to meditation.

The meditation was much the same as the Buddhist meditation that I practiced over the weekend however we were instructed to focus on anything we wanted rather than only breathing. The goal was to always bring the focus back to whatever object we had our focus on. There were three separate meditations and each one progressed to deeper meditation and they were separated by another new type of breathing. We had to breath in 4 times and then out 4 times followed by a very deep breath in and then and exhale which lead into the meditation. The meditation seemed to have lasted about 30 minutes and then we did a closing set of mantras and the class ended.

Did anything odd happen? Yes! There was something very strange that happened during the meditation and I have no idea how this is even possible. When I closed my eyes during the meditation I was still able to see the people in the room around me meditating. The sight was not crystal clear like normal vision but instead it was similar to looking at an object that's sitting against a bright background for a long time without moving your eyes and then closing your eyes and seeing the outline of the object. The only difference was that I saw more than an outline, I saw pale shades of the actual colors that they were wearing and this "sight without eyes" lasted for the entire meditation.. I asked the teacher about this after the class and he simply told me to observe but not to analyze or get caught up in it. I found that very hard to do in this instance. I have observed this same phenomenon right before projecting but I felt much more relaxed while projecting so this time didn't make very much sense.

In conclusion, I think that this meditation will be effective in the future when my breath and physical shape improves but during this class I was simply not up to the challenge. I believe that this practice may help to condition my body and mind for Astral Projection. Overall it was a great learning experience and I definitely learned that I am out of shape and that I don't know how to breath :).

Vibrational State Reached Using Shamatha Meditation

2009-03-02T07:05:00.014-06:00

I have not achieved the out of body state in a few weeks due to pain and drugs associated with the extraction of my lower wisdom teeth. The pain has now been gone and I have been trying for the last week to Astral Project.

Last night I decided that I would apply some of the Shamatha Meditation techniques I learned over the weekend for Astral Projection. The two seem so alike that I can't help but suspect that they are the same exact thing under different names. In fact I found myself sitting in a group of people in the Buddhist temple meditating and thinking to myself, "This is just another technique for achieving the out of body state".

I went to bed and fell asleep with no problem at about 11:00 PM while listening to Fleetwood Mac and John Lennon. I woke at 4:00 PM, had my bathroom break and then returned to bed. I ran the mantra "I am now out of body" through my head for about 10 minutes and then my mind and body fell into sleep. I then woke back up around 6:00 AM. This time I began using the "focus on breathing" technique used in Shamatha Meditation. Random thoughts would enter my mind and I would gently return focus to breathing. The pattern repeated itself 3 more times and then I fell into a shallow sleep and almost lost consciousness but was able to return my focus back to my breathing. 1 more minute passed and the vibrations hit me but it was 6:30 AM, time for work!

I may try this technique again, but as I mentioned in previous posts, I don't think it really matters what you're focused on as long as you keep focused on something.

I would be interested to hear if anyone else happens to see the similarities between Shamatha Meditation and Astral Projection.

Shamatha Meditation

2009-02-28T08:27:00.028-06:00

Yesterday I had the opportunity to visit the Shambhala Meditation Center here is Austin. The center was established in 1976 and offers classes on meditation and Shambhala Buddhism which is a form of Western Buddhism. I made several new friends and had my first lesson in Shamatha Meditation.

During the visit there was a an initial focus on the history of Shambhala Buddhism and then 70% of the 2 hours was focused on Shamatha Meditation, what meditation is, what it isn't and then about 15 minutes of actual meditation as a group.

In Buddhism, there are two types of meditation: Shamatha and Vipassana. Shamatha is single pointed meditation. Vipassana is an analytic form of meditation. These 2 meditations have to be cultivated in sequence. Shamatha meditation first, and then Vipassana. Although, the individual need not to have fully accomplished the Shamatha meditation, he must have proper experience of Shamatha meditation in order to embark on Vipassana. Without having any experience of Shamatha meditation, then practice of Vipassana meditation is ineffective.

Shamatha meditation helps to free the mind from disturbing emotions and conceptual thinking processes. It brings the mind under control, under discipline, with some degree of single pointed focus, with full alertness of mind. By doing this meditation, the individual is able to suppress disturbing emotions and gain inner peace, harmony and balance.

Vipassana meditation directly helps to pull out the seeds or imprints that are left in our psyche by these manifest emotional defilements and distorted thoughts so that disturbing emotions and thoughts will never reoccur. It brings unchanging and everlasting inner peace, joy and harmony.

The very purpose of Shamatha meditation is not just to feel good for a period of time but to give birth to deeper levels of understanding, of wisdom. So that individuals can see the ultimate reality of phenomena and are able to go beyond ordinary perceptions. Shamatha meditation cuts through ordinary appearances and the confusion between our concepts and reality.

Now, how to engage in Shamatha meditation and what exactly one is doing while sitting and meditating? When sitting in meditation, one is sitting in motionless body and motionless mind. Sitting in motionless body is not difficult. Sitting in motionless mind is not easy because our ordinary mind is so undisciplined and so oriented, or drawn, towards external stimulation. It is very hard to bring the mind to rest and calm with no single wave of thought or thinking process. Although one can bring mind to rest or calm for a short time, our mind can remain blank, or numb, with no sense of freshness and alertness. Thus, one forgets the object of meditation and mind will be influenced by drowsiness, excitement, or wandering. Therefore, it is really not easy for us to live in motionless mind, even during the meditation period.

In brief, Shamatha meditation is the state of single pointed mind, characterized by perfect mental stability and mental clarity, having some degree of freshness within the mind. Mental clarity can only come when the mind becomes free from sluggishness, drowsiness, haziness, cloudiness, numbness and blankness. Mental stability will only come when the mind becomes free from excitement, agitation, manic thoughts and addiction to wandering aimlessly with no definite destination.

Mental drowsiness and excitement are the two obstacles out of the six obstacles of shamatha meditation that we are going to discuss next time. Every human being is fully qualified to practice Shamatha meditation no matter who we are, no matter what kind of culture we come from.

What causes us to fail at perfecting this form of meditation is laziness, forgetfulness, lack of interest, and not being able to see the positive benefits of Shamatha meditation. The reason we are not interested in meditation is that we think of material comforts, luxuries are the best things in life. We are so consumed by the needs and many demands of this life that we become slaves of material comforts. But in fact, material comforts and luxuries are not the best things in our life because life is temporary. We have a lot of fear and worry concerning material comforts. Material comforts really fool us and mislead us in many ways. If we are sincerely able to see the way material comforts effect us then we can sit in meditation without grasping at what may be the end result of our meditation.

Student : So how do we let go of an end result and just do it?

Geshe la : It is like eating food. When you eat food, you just keep eating and naturally your stomach fills up. You don't need to live with the thought of when your stomach fills up. We don't have to worry about the result, it happens. Considering the end result is only distracting. It is the same way in meditation, it only proves distracting, then we lose the process and meditation becomes frustrating. Just sit in meditation with no expectation.

Student : I am reading the Bhavanakrama. In the part about Tranquilization (which is the same as shamatha, I think) Kamalasila says, "When the mind sinks," ( which I think is the same as 'mental drowsiness'), "you should think of a delightful object such as the body of the Buddha or a light." Do you have any other ideas, or 'delightful objects; to counteract drowsiness?

Geshe la : Objects that cause you to lift up your mind are all delightful objects. You are correct in your assumptions about what they are talking about in the book, metal sinking = mental drowsiness.

Student : Are living people possible delightful objects?

Geshe la : Your girlfriend? If this isn't a delightful object, then logically it must be a horrible object. Maybe I am wrong because I am a monk! (hahahaha) So, living people can be objects of meditation. Bodhisattvas, Mother Theresa, His Holiness the Dalai Lama, etc., are all, or were at one time, living beings.

Student : I have heard that monks are to look at women as 'female demons'.

Geshe la : This is totally wrong! In tantric teachings, especially, the male practitioner must try and see ALL females as dakinis!

Student : Geshe la, in my readings on western thought and my readings in Eastern thought, I keep coming across all kinds of expressions that more or less say to view our reality as sacred. Even Plato saw this, everything right down to the last little thing. What is your thought on this?

Geshe la : I have many thoughts! In Sutrayana teaching, I don't think it teaches that our reality as sacred. It only teaches us to view and see every sentient being as a sacred because of Buddha nature. In Vajrayana teachings, we are taught to view our reality as sacred and as pure. The very purpose Vajrayana teachings and practice is to dissolve our ordinary perception, ordinary clinging, and ordinary appearance. We can only view our reality as sacred and pure when we are able to dissolve the ordinary clinging, ordinary perception, and ordinary appearance. Otherwise, there is no way to see our reality as sacred and the expression 'our reality' becomes just a dry word.

During the meditation there was verbal guidance which provided the key techniques that must be followed to achieve success. I would like to go over the things I experienced during the meditation and touch on the parts that I feel are important and how I think they tie directly into Astral Projection.

The first thing we focused on was posture and position. I feel that this is vital for this type of meditation but maybe not for astral projection. The posture was a seated position with legs crossed and sitting slightly lower than the hip. The back must remain straight but comfortable with the ears positioned directly above the shoulders. The arms hang straight down with the hands resting palm down on the knees or thighs. I was not able to get perfectly comfortable in this position however I have terrible posture so I expect this to improve with time.

The next step was relaxing the body. This step is vital for this type of meditation and for astral projection. We moved through each part of the body relaxing each until the entire body was relaxed. This is the exact same thing I do each night while preparing to project and it's a prerequisite and one of the first steps you will hear on Robert Monroe's "Gateway Experience" CDs. You must be relaxed for meditation or astral projection to work.

The last and very important step in my opinion was the focus on breath. The goal is to be still and focus all attention on breath with no expectations. When you do this thoughts will naturally arise and when they do, you neither cling to them or push them away, but rather acknowledge and observe them and return your focus to breath. Inner peace can be achieved if you are able to successfully do this. This step is interesting to me because it's one of the main techniques I use when astral projecting except I focus on a place or object rather than breath. This technique is presented in William Bulhman's book "Adventures Beyond the Body: How to Experience Out-of-Body Travel".

In conclusion. I feel that Shamatha Meditation and astral projection are very similar (if not the same) and that by practicing both I should be able to achieve inner peace and astral projection quicker. The two practices complimant each other and I suggest that those of you who are attempting astral projection without practicing meditation add meditation to your lifesytle.

The Performer 2400 - Heavy Duty Chi Generator®

2009-02-20T21:35:00.011-06:00

This week is finally drawing to an end and the extreme pain that I have been experiencing after having the bottom two wisdom teeth yanked out a week ago is now fading. I am beginning to get my focus shifted back in the direction of Astral Projection, and with a powerful new weapon in my arsenal.

You might say that I asked for out of body experiences and the universe is listening. I really do see bright things in my future. Today my new Performer 2400 - Heavy Duty Chi Generator® arrived in the mail. This device is life force generating powerhouse. All I can say is that if you give you will receive and I want to send a big thanks to the sender (you know who you are).

The purpose of the Chi Generator® is to energize yourself and to add power to all of your actions at a distance, such as in combination with a manifestation program or with an older-type manifestation or radionics device, i.e., any device without a built-in Chi Generator®.

This particular model is very powerful and has 12 preset frequency settings, one of which resonates at a frequency ideal for lucid dreaming. It also has three other separate dials that allow for precision frequencies.

The performer 2400 basically emits low pulse life force energy in the exact frequency of brainwaves in a similar fashion as Brainsync and other technologies do, however with a huge difference. When you are in a field of low pulse life force energy your brain can adjust very rapidly to it's frequency and the need for sound or other devices such as light are no longer needed. This basically means you really don't need binaural sound beats or headphones anymore, you can just turn this machine on and set a transfer next to your bed and go to sleep (or not).

I do like the sound tracks so I doubt I will stop listening to them.

I have added a link to http://www.hscti.net, the maker of this device to my links below. Please take a short trip over to this site and check out all of the devices. You may want to consider purchasing one of these devices if you are a die hard binaural beat user, as it will eliminate the need for sleeping with headphones as I mentioned earlier and on top of that, the actual applications for this device are as limitless as your imagination.

Reiki Session 2 - Third Eye Chakra

2009-02-16T19:54:00.016-06:00

It's been an interesting week. I began a journey to remove all of the mercury from my mouth at the end of last year when I realized, while driving down the road, that my migraines started roughly when I got 7 amalgam fillings at the end of 2007. Last Wednesday the last of the metal was removed when I got the bottom two wisdom teeth extracted. I can't say that the migraines were caused by the metal but I know that I am better off without the mercury poisoning.

Needless to say, the last week has been a week of pure pain without any OBEs and

this morning didn't start off any differently. I have been taking 4 darvocet every 4 hours and last night I decided that I would not take my 2 AM dose and then woke up at 5 AM with a ringing in my head and I could feel my heart beating in my jaw. I quickly took the pills and fell back asleep and woke up at 8 AM for my President's Day shift.

The day was busy and slightly stressful but I kept popping pain pills and made it to 5 PM. I realized at about 4:30 PM that I had scheduled a Reiki session with Tianna at Awakening Transformation here in Austin. She is a Certified Clinical Hypnotist, Reiki Master Teacher (Usui Lineage) and an Ordained Minister.

I wasn't going to be able to drive myself to the session because I was highly intoxicated so I called my Wife and "God bless her heart" she rushed home from work and almost ran out of gas getting me there. I think that she needs a Reiki session herself now.

When we got there it was about 5:45 PM and was raining lightly and darkness was approaching. I had only printed out Tianna's building number and I was not able to locate where in the building she was. My wife dropped me off and left to go find a filling station and I stayed and started looking for Tianna.

I walked around in the rain for 15 minutes in the Market District and had no luck finding her. I knew that she was somewhere close but it really didn't matter because close to me was literally 100 different apartments. I just stood under the awning for about 5 minutes and waiting on it to stop raining and then started walking down the sidewalk back to where my wife had dropped me off. The rain was very peaceful.

When I reached the spot that I was dropped off at my wife was still gone and then I heard someone yell me name. My wife had called Tianna and she was on one of the top floors of the building calling down to me. I made my way to her apartment with no more incident.

This session was very similar to my last session and I could feel a swirling energy in my head when she worked on it. There was one thing in particular that happened that was exactly the same in both sessions. There was a muscle twitch in my arm and in my leg during both sessions in the same spots. They were not mild twitches and were very distinct, almost like being stimulated by electricity. She said that this happens often and may be energy pathways opening.

I felt calm afterward and I talked to Tianna for about 10 minutes. I asked her if she felt anything during the session and she did say that my 6th chakra seemed to be very active, however my other chakras need some work. She speculated that maybe what seems to be negative may not be negative at all and may actually be an awakening of my inner self.

I think today's session was very beneficial and I highly recommend Tianna.

saltcube.com - How to Lucid Dream

2009-02-08T11:59:00.010-06:00

It's been over a month now since I began my journey of astral projection. Then the night before last I was browsing meditation tutorials on youtube and "by chance" came across a preview of the videos offered on saltcube.com for lucid dreaming / OBE.

The videos cost $19 dollars so I figured "what the hell" and went ahead and bought them. I watched part one this morning and I must admit, this looks VERY promising. Matt actually presents the entire process scientifically and seemingly removes the guess work from achieving this higher state of consciousness. I am very anxious to try out these new techniques.

He basically suggests that the body speaks to the mind with certain signals throughout the day and night essentially performing checks to make sure that the mind is not asleep. Once we learn what these signals are and to recognize them we can "trick" the body into thinking the mind is asleep and the body will simply shut down while the mind continues to be conscious.

The one thing I found odd about the videos was the fact that Matt seemed (may not be true) to believe that none of this was anything more than just a dream. I thought that this was a bit shallow but then I thought some more. It dawned on me that perhaps it was my definition of dream that was throwing me off. I was not considering the possibility that waking life itself is just a different state of awareness, just a dream that's tuned into the physical part of the universe.

The more I research this subject the more I realize that the physical brain itself is fundamentally just energy and nothing more. This means that when we experience an OBE or a lucid dream it's just a shift in our awareness into a different energy state, the same energy that our physical brain shares but is not aware of. Therefor when we project it is indeed just a dream which is created by our physical brains just like Matt explains, and so is our waking life.

I will try these new techniques that Matt has so clearly explained and I am 99% sure I am going to see an explosion of OBEs.

Good luck everyone and I hope I am able to help you achieve the same goal as mine. I've added a link to saltcude. com on the left.

Reiki Session 1 - Restructuring

2009-02-04T14:38:00.009-06:00

Today I met Carrie Laymon over at Pathfinder healing here in Austin.

Carrie Laymon is PathFinder, a name derived from the spiritual energy of the Wolf. In some Native American traditions, the wolf is considered the PathFinder. In this lore, wolf medicine represents protection, loyalty, teaching, and leading the way through intuition, spiritual wisdom and universal truth.

Carrie, who has been healing people for 20 years, is a Reiki Master here in Austin. She takes a holistic approach to healing while focusing on the body's energy (soul) rather that the body's physical matter for healing.

We live in such a materialistic world these days and we all tend to forget or often need reminders that we are more than our physical body. When I glance out at the world around me I notice a common pattern, and it's that most people believe in a "soul" of some type, or should I say "life after death". Interestingly enough, even though we have these beliefs we disguard them when we get sick and usually only focus on getting the physical part of us better. It never dawns on us that maybe it's a spiritual problem (not always) which has simply manifested itself in the physical.

I think a lot of times our spirit tries to tell us things but we get so caught up in things that don't matter "such as cell phones", that we don't hear our inner self speaking to us. This goes on for a while and then the body starts to fall ill, as if our spirit is speaking to us in the only language that we know at the time which is "physical".

Myself, realizing that maybe all of my physical ailments were just symptoms of something the wasn't physical at all I started looking for some healing hands. I turned to Google and immediately found Carrie ranked number 1 in the results. I called her and we talked for about an hour about life and such and I felt like we connected. Without reservations I scheduled a session for Today.

When I arrived at her office at 12:30 I must admit that I was nervous. I was actually quite nervous throughout the entire session, but I was able to relax some. Carrie was very polite and professional and after I filled out two entire pieces of paper I moved to the table and prepared myself for the healing.

Carrie immediately felt that although I was pulling in quite a bit of energy, my energy body was fragmented making it impossible for this energy to be properly received. She quickly began to work on restructuring my energy body.

During the first 10 minutes she did some work around my forehead area and I could feel a pulsating energy right between my eyes. When ever she would move her hands this pulsating energy would move to wherever her hands were. I would like to point out that she was not touching me at this point, her hands were just hovering over me. She continued the head work for about 20 minutes it seemed.

Next, she actually placed her hand on my head and I could actually feel energy moving around in my head. Sometimes I would feel a wave of energy shoot across and down though my body and into the table.

She continued to work on different parts of my body until she was at my feet. When she started working on my feet I had the same feeling that I had in my head expect I could feel energy moving and bouncing around my entire body. It was almost like hundreds of hands moving around inside me. Very strange feeling, similar to the vibrations I feel when projecting.

The session ended and we talked for a while about a few more sessions to completely "connect" my energy body so that I can move on to Kundalini Yoga. We didn't discover any emotional issues that needed any work, basically restructuring is all I need.

Driving home I felt more alert and calm. I think that overall, it was a great experience.

No Progress Is Progress.

2009-02-04T09:27:00.006-06:00

I have not had any success over the past few days but I want to write about why, because knowing what doesn't work is progress in and of itself. I have had a migraine this week that is slowly dragging to an end and have been covered up at work. I think that these two things combined with not much sleep has hindered my progress.

The good news is that my new approach is going to work. I have been listening to a Brainsync track called "Brain Massage" while falling asleep. I still try to stay alert, but I don't fight it. The migraine seems to be letting up now and the breathing is getting better.

When I wake up in the morning my thoughts are racing because of work, however I have been able to pull off the vibrational state every morning so far, even with the stress of work and without the use binaural beats. This to me is a good sign and now all I need to do is focus on doing what I can at work and totally forgetting about the rest. It means putting myself first over work, which I have failed to do for years. Time for a change, time for a big change.

This weekend is suppose to be mostly stress free and will give me the opportunity to use the beats in the morning. I will see success this weekend so stay tuned :)

Season 1, Episode 5: Where No One Has Gone Before

2009-02-02T19:12:00.016-06:00

I thought I would write about an experience that I had today that I would call a coincidence.

I am what you might consider a Star Trek The Next Generation addict (Trekkie). During the last few days this random thought has been running though my head about Star Tek and whether there is any references to OBEs / astral projection. I was thinking that Star Trek must have missed out of the OBE message and I was kind of disappointed because I thought I had watched every TNG episode.

Today I worked from home and it so happened that I was watching recorded DVR episodes back to back. When the next episode came up I expected to see a familiar episode but to my suprise it was one that I somehow missed!

Season 1, Episode 5: Where No One Has Gone Before:

The Enterprise is ordred to undergo a series of tests that will propel the ship at unfathomable speed, but Riker has misgivings surrounding the equations and theories presented by the arrogant designer, and someone, most unexpected, is the only one who puts his finger on the assistant as the one behind the whole scheme of things.

This is the best episode that I have ever seen and it aligns perfectly with astral projection. Basically with the power of thought energy this man aboard the ship who is called "The Traveller" uses pure thought to propel the Enterprise 1 billion light years away from our galaxy in a matter of mintues.

The ship ends up in a non consensus part of the universe that's made up of pure energy and all of the crew members begin the realize that what ever they think about becomes a reality. The crew has to learn very quickly to control their thoughts.

Toward the end Captain Picard speaks to "The Traveller" in an attempt to get the ship back home and the man tells Picard that the true nature of the universe is governed by thoughts alone and though thoughts all things come into existence.

"The Traveller's" physical body begins to die and it's only though the collective kind thoughts of the entire ship focused toward him that they are able to heal him and make it back home.

If you are a fan of both Star Trek and Astral Projection, this episode is for you. It's cool how I was just thinking about this throughout the days before and then the episode that I had never seen before shows up and happens "by chance" to have astral projection related concepts embedded all within it. Amazing. The universe is hard at work, bringing my thoughts into reality in every way possible, even with Star Trek.

Integrating Healing Into My Approach

2009-02-02T08:35:00.008-06:00

I have noticed that migraines have started to take over my life again, and have been preventing me from being in the state of mind needed for astral projection over the last few days. My migraines tend to cause pain, confusion, loss of sight, numbness throughout my body and breathing problems.

I have had the brain MRIs, EEGs, several sleep studies, seen pulmonologists, heart doctors, ear nose and throat doctors, family doctors and chiropractors. None of which have been able to help me.

Last year around November 24th I began to listen to a brainsync track called "Sound Healing" and saw miraculous results. I actually eliminated sleeping problems that I have been experiencing for the last 10 years and more importantly my migraines disappeared. I am not sure why this track cured me, but I can assure you that it did.

I stopped listening to this track around the same time that I started attempting astral projection and the sleep problems and migraines slowly entered into my life again, and now I am back to 1 or 2 migraines a week. I think this is mainly because my sleep patterns are off.

Last night I woke up at 3 AM and noticed that I was having problems breathing. I literally felt like I was going to die. This was a feeling that I could not get enough air out of my lungs. I struggled to shake this for 2 hours and then fell asleep finally with great anxiety. Then 15 minutes later woke up with the full migraine including the aura which causes loss of sight. The pain shortly followed.

What I found interesting about this is that after the migraine set in, I entered the vibrational state without even thinking about it or trying. I simply tried to relax to eliminate the migraine / breathing symptoms and it just happened. I didn't proceed because I just didn't feel like it.

I have decided after last night that there are going to be several changes in my approach.

I will be no longer attempt astral projection at the beginning of my night when I go to bed. I am going to start listening to "Sound Healing" again while initially falling asleep.
I am going to have several Reiki treatments which will hopefully adjust my energy and eliminate anxiety from my life and promote healing.
I am going to start practicing Reiki. This will allow me to continue self treatments after having treatments done by a master
I am going to start taking Kundalini Yoga to help with energy flow and relaxation.
I am going to start studying Buddhism and meditating at one of the Buddhist centers here in Austin.
I will attempt astral projection in the morning after having a restful sleep. It's obvious after last night that OBEs seems to naturally occur early in the morning after a refreshing sleep.
I will continue to use the same techniques for astral projection and continue listening to Hemi-Sync.

Anyone who has studied Reiki, please send some healing energy my way.

You can see that my new approach is holistic in nature and I am very hopeful that I will find a cure.

Thanks for listening.

Hemi-Sync - Dream Transition - The Orgy

2009-01-31T08:20:00.014-06:00

I had a very interesting experience with "Hemi-Sync - Journeys Out of Body - Condition C" last night. I read about 20 pages of Monroe's - Far Journeys" and then at about 11:30 PM I got sleepy and I started off my night listening to the complete "Hemi-Sync - Gateway Experience - Introduction to Focus 10" track. This track completed and I started listening to "Condition C', but I was too sleepy and I feel asleep.

Before I go any further I want to share with everyone the difference between these tracks in the "Hemi-Sync - Journeys Out of Body" collection. This is straight from the guidance that comes with it.

The Borderland Sleep State, Condition A

"Lie down, preferably when you are tired and sleepy, As you become relaxed and start to drift off into sleep, hold your mental attention on something, anything, with your eyes closed. Once you ca hold the borderland sleep state indefinitely without falling asleep, you have passed the first stage. You will know you are successful when you become bored and expect something more to happen."

Bob, described Condition A as "the ability to hold calmly in the borderland sleep state, indefinitely, with your mind on an exclusive thought." Continue using the Condition A support exercise until you have achieved this state.

The Condition A support exercise consists of Hemi-Sync audio-guidance designed to help you stay awake and alert. At 20-minute intervals, an extended reminder sequence refereed to as the "beacon guidepost" is repeated with additional reinforcing Attention/Concentration frequencies, and a short verbal reminder in Bob's voice, "remember your purpose...."

This exercise and all that follow are one hour in length and can be repeated automatically, if desired, by setting the appropriate controls on your CD player (refer to your owner's manual).

Condition B

Similar to Condition A, but with the concentration eliminated. "Do not think of anything, but remain poised between wakefulness and sleep. Simply look through your closed eyes at the blackness ahead of you. Do nothing more. You have accomplished Condition B when you are able to lie indefinitely after the impressions have faded away, with no nervousness, and seeing nothing but blackness."

The Condition B support exercise is identical to the Condition A exercise, without the repeating reminder sequences. As you begin to acclimate to this borderland sleep state, you will no longer need the reminders and they will simply get in the way.

Condition C

"Condition C is a systematic deepening of consciousness while in the B state. This is approached by carefully letting go of your rigid hold on the borderland sleep edge and drifting deeper, little by little, during each exercise.

"Condition C is characterized by the shutting down of various sensory mechanism inputs, The sense of touch apparently goes first. You seem to have no feeling in any part of your body. Smell and taste soon follow, The auditory signals are next, and the last to fade out is vision."

The Condition C support exercise, as in the previous two exercises, uses Hemi-Sync audio-guidance designed to help you stay awake and alert. At 20-minute intervals, the Attention/Focus/Concentration signals re replaced by Hemi-Sync signals designed to allow you to drift deeper and deeper into the borderland sleep state and reinforcing signals conducive to the out-of-body experience and lucid dreaming.

Condition D

"Condition D is the achievement of C when one is fully rested and refreshed, rather than tired and sleepy, at the beginning of the exercise."

The final exercise in the series switches to Hemi-Sync audio-guidance frequencies designed to help you move from a fully awake and refreshed state, into a state of deep relaxation. At 20-minute intervals, additional reinforcing signals are added conductive to the out-of-body experience and lucid dreaming.

Like clockwork I woke up at 4 AM for my bathroom run. I seriously think I have reprogrammed myself to automatically wake up at 4 AM because it happens every night now. When I woke up the headphones were still on and had been looping "Condition C" for the last 4 hours.

I went back to bed and fell asleep listening to "Condition C" again. I am not sure how much time passed but I ended up in a dream. I was in an unfamiliar room with a bunch of people I seemed to know in this dream, however in waking life, looking back on it, I don't think I know any of them.

The room I was in was like a huge sleeping area with several beds however it also resembled a classroom. I was at the front of the room where the chalkboard would be with someone that I knew in my dream (but not in real life), and I was trying to get some sleep. There were about 40 other men and women in the classroom part of the room partying there heads off. There were several long folding tables lined up and they were running back and forth between them.

This all seemed quite innocent at first and I was getting annoyed by it all because I was trying to sleep. Then for some reason this took a turn for the wild side and people started taking off their clothes. I looked at the person I was with at the front of the room and we both seemed a bit shocked by it all.

I got the idea that I was considered the prudent type by everyone in the class including this person that was with me at the front.

The wild party continued to spiral out of control and people ended up having sex and I then realized that I wasn't going to get any sleep and then for some reason every one's focus turned to me. I remember being picked up by several of the people and thrown right into the midst of this orgy. This is when I realized that the situation I was in was to bizarre to be real and instantly I became lucid in my dream.

I guess I didn't feel worthy or I chickened out, but I willed myself away from this sex party and thought about exiting my body. I was immediately back in my bed in the vibrational state. I think I had already transitioned to by astral body because I could see right through my eyelids and was looking at the wall beside me in my bedroom. I guess I chose the wrong exit strategy because I tried to raise my upper body up with my arms, kind of like a push up, and when I did, I ended up snapping back into my body. I woke up and opened my eyes and was facing the wall. How annoying.

What have I learned from all of this? I have learned that I can transition from a dream to a lucid dream and then from a lucid dream to out of body. I have also learned that I chicken out when thrown into a huge group of naked women in a dream. LOL.

Hemi-Sync - Answered Question

2009-01-30T08:39:00.012-06:00

Last night I was very tired and didn't feel like trying to project, however I didn't want to waste a night so I got the Gateway Experience tracks out loaded up "Wave I - Discovery 2 - Introduction to Focus 10.mp3". My goal was to practice achieving "Focus 10".

I am the "oncall" guy this week at work so I am required to carry a Blackberry with me everywhere I go and must respond to any pages that come in. These pages alert me when customers run into issues with our hosted web applications or if one of my monitors indicate a server issue. These pages can come in at any hour of the day or night.

I become relaxed around 11 PM and put on the "Introduction to Focus 10" track and started visualizing what Monroe was saying. I would like to point out that I always start off my sleep with the Gateway Affirmation because I "firmly" believe that thoughts become reality. The affirmation goes like this:

I am more than my physical body. Because I am more than physical matter, I can perceive that which is greater than the physical world. Therefore, in these exercises, I deeply desire to Expand, to Experience, to Know, to Understand, to Control to Use such greater energies and energy systems as may be beneficial and constructive to me and to those who follow me. Also, during these exercises, I deeply desire the help and cooperation, the assistance, the understanding of those individuals whose wisdom, development and experience are equal to or greater than my own. I ask their guidance and protection from any influence or any source that might provide me with less than my stated desires.

I got to the section that takes you through relaxing each part of the body and then had a vision of floating over this endless plane of three dimensional cubes lining the ground below me. This quickly disappeared and I was staring at the blackness again. Suddenly had the feeling that my body was swaying from side to side and that I was floating. I felt a surge of energy (vibration around my heart) and then without warning it was all shot down by the blackberry pager which sounded and pulled me completely back to waking life.

I got up out of bed and noticed that it was one of my monitors that I put in place. It was nothing critical so I went back to bed and put on "Hemi-Sync - Journeys Out of Body - Condition A". I figured I was done with "Focus 10" for the night and that I would just try for normal sleep. I wasn't trying hold myself in the borderland sleep state by listening to "Condition A", I just thought that something might happen involuntarily if I had it on.

20 minutes later heavy vibrations started which were interrupted by Monroe's voice saying "Remember your purpose". I was awake again at this point, completely out of the trance. I laid in bed for another 20 minutes and heavy vibrations started and once again were interrupted by Monroe's voice saying "Remember your purpose". I finally fell asleep somewhere between one to 19 minutes later.

I woke up at 4 AM and had a strange swimming sensation going on in my head. The headphones had fallen off at some point. I went for a bathroom run and then came back to bed and put "Condition A". I started staring at the blackness and 15 minutes later I felt like there was something with me, a presence in the blackness. I don't think I was out of body but I asked the question "Am I doing things right?" and I clearly got a reply back, "You are doing things perfect". I took the headphones off and fell asleep.

So what does all of this mean? I really have no idea. I think that I should move on to the "Condition B" track that doesn't have Monroe's reminders.

I am pretty sure I would have reached the out of body state if it had not been for "Remember your purpose".

I can't do anything about the Blackberry alerts that wake me up, but it would have been interesting to have seen it progress further.

The reply that I got to my question seems to indicate that I am on the right track. We will see :).

Hemi-Sync - Progess

2009-01-28T07:40:00.009-06:00

I wrote a small blog entry 5 days ago about "Hemi-Sync Support for Journeys Out of the Body", so I am taking the time to give a small progress report, especially after last night.

I went to bed around 10 PM last night and read 30 pages of Robert Monroe's book "Far Journeys". I am actually reading his books in reverse, I started with reading "Ultimate Journey". It was lights out at 10:30 PM and I put my headphones on and began listening to "Condition A".

I spent the first 15 minutes staring at blackness and repeating affirmations. Then some unusual events started unfolding before my closed eyes. I first started seeing the pulsating colors that I mentioned in a previous blog entry. This resembles the colors that appear on an old TV if you stick a magnet on it, the colors start out by covering my complete field of vision and then move inward to single point and then disappear. I would like to mention that there is a pattern here in that when I see these colors, I am right on the edge of stranger things.

The colors lasted for about 5 minutes and then I started seeing very vivid mental imagery. First I saw a coiled rope in perfect clarity laying on the ground and then it vanished quickly. Next, I felt that I was floating in a forest at twilight, I was 20 feet above the tree tops and the trees, they were all bare and displayed perfect white branches. There were thousands of these trees. The sky was a beautiful dark blue color and the stars were out. This vision quickly disappear. Next I heard a voice very clearly say "There it is!"

The voices and imagery stopped after about a minute "I think" and I sat up in bed. When I sat up, I noticed that something felt wrong, I didn't feel my body's weight or sense of touch. I suddenly realized that I was out of my body and instantly was snapped back and sat up again and noticed I still had the headphones on listening to "Condition A".

I will continue using this product as it seems to induce the OB state very effectively.

The Missed Signal - Pool Wall

2009-01-27T09:02:00.008-06:00

I will not spend very much time on this post because I don't remember much, however I feel obligated to write this down to reinforce it. I was dreaming last night and had another event in my dream that I feel was my subconscious communicating with me, trying to bring me to lucidity.

This is very hazy and I don't remember much, but I remember seeing this guy sitting on the edge of an in ground pool and he was muttering something about a failed OBE. He for some reason felt that he had tried to have an OBE but it did not happen so he was sitting by this pool pissed off about it. There was something that happened and I can't remember what, but the guy realized that he was indeed out of body and that he was detached from his body sitting by the pool. He then stood up and walked off into the water, turned to his right and walked through the side of the pool wall.

I should have noticed that my subconscious was trying to make me lucid but once again I let the opportunity slip away. Every day I get closer and closer to my goal. It will not be long.

Breaking Old Habits

2009-01-26T07:57:00.018-06:00

I've been frequenting the Astral Pulse forums for about 20 days now and I have read at least that many ways for achieving the altered state of consciousness called an OBE. The techniques are important, but if you look at each technique, it seems that the key to success boils down to one single thing, which is not falling asleep, at least mentally. This seems very foreign to me and takes extreme focus to pull it off.

I have been asking myself why I require so much intense focus to change the way in which I fall asleep, and the answer is more obvious than you might think. When you consider that it took your entire life to learn how to fall asleep you will then suddenly realize that it may take the entire remainder of your life to change that habit, well maybe not that long, but it will take time.

This is not just restricted to the world of out of body experiences and transformations of consciousness. The reason I noticed this was not OBE related at all. I have recently switched to the Chrome web browser and love it, however I can't stop clicking on the IE icon. I have spent the last 3 days clicking on the wrong icon and then literally a fraction of a second later kicking myself for clicking it.

That’s why when we want to change old habits, our most important path is being awake to our experience. We need to pay attention to what we are doing and notice every little thing. We must realize that if it takes days to reverse a habit of clicking a simple computer icon, that it may take weeks, months and possibly years to change our sleeping habits. These habits are hard coded and must be rewritten.

The irony here is that when we break these habits we realize that the waking life that we have been experienceing was nothing but dream itself. It's only through breaking these habits that we can set our spirits free and experience life rather than being stuck in patterns of inertia.

Extreme Vibrations - Chickened Out

2009-01-24T08:14:00.017-06:00

I woke up at 7:30 AM this morning and noticed that my wife had moved over to my daughter's room at some point and laid down with her. My daughter is almost 3 and occasionally will have nightmares or what not and come and get one of us. This was a perfect opportunity for a projection attempt. I went and emptied my bladder and then headed back to bed.

The temperature in the house was about 70 degrees so I snuggled up under the comforter and put my headphones and began listening to "Hemi-Sync Support for Journeys Out of the Body - Condition A". My technique this time was to repeat affirmations over and over while picturing myself sitting or floating in my cubical at work. I have such a nice cubical right by a window in the greenbelt of Austin. My affirmations were: "I'm pure thought", "I now transfer to my higher energy state", "I am not floating in my cubical", "I am out of body", and "It feels great to be free".

It seemed that my focus kept bouncing around from the affirmations and back to the visualization of my cubical. I could see my cubical in my mind with crystal clarity. My attention would also occasionally redirect to what I was seeing in the blackness behind my eyes. I noticed that in the blackness there really wasn't blackness. I don't know if you have ever put a magnet on one of the old school tube TVs, but there is that discoloration, and that's kind of what I was seeing in my vision except the colors were more subtle and would start out covering my complete field of vision and would then move inward to a point and disappear. This created a pulsating color effect.

I kept doing my visualizations and affirmations and then about 15 minutes into it I noticed that the colors in the blackness ceased and things got quiet. "Condition A" was fading and was barely audible. This is very hard to explain but the blackness felt like it expanded and somehow became 3D. I know that sounds strange, but that's the feeling I got. The very next second the vibrations started, and they were extreme. The blackness started fading away and all the I could see was a white light getting brighter and brighter. This was not a point of light but was my entire field of vision which was fading from darkness to white light. It was so intense that my heart started beating like 150 bpm. I could not sustain this and bailed.

When I woke up, and this is the really strange part, my vision / perspective of the room was all distorted for about 5 minutes. I had no depth perception at all and it was if I could reach out and touch the wall that was 20 feet away.

The good news is that I know the new technique works and I was able to experience some new things. I think I just need to calm myself down like I have done in the past when I reach the vibrational state. This time was just much more intense than I have ever experienced so it caught me off guard.

Hemi-Sync Support for Journeys Out of the Body

2009-01-23T22:59:00.019-06:00

I brought up the Gateway Experience CDs over on the Astral Pulse Forum a few days ago and CFTraveler mentioned "Hemi-Sync Support for Journeys Out of the Body" as a cheaper alternative.

I have listened to the first 4 tracks of the "Gateway Experience" and the material is great and I was able to see some results but after looking over the "Support for Journeys Out of the Body" series I think I am going to put "Gateway Experience" aside for awhile. I want to pursue my more immediate goal which is to achieve OBEs. This is no way means that I giving up on the "Gateway Experience" as I plan mastering each wave in the series.

Here's a brief overview of "Hemi-Sync Support for Journeys Out of the Body" from the Monroe Institute's website:

The out-of-body-experience (OBE) is a state in which one's consciousness appears to depart the physical body allowing perception by means other than those of the physical senses. Hemi-Sync® Support for Journeys Out of the Body is an in-home training series designed to provide Hemi-Sync audio-guidance to those who desire to achieve this state. With practice, one can be brought up to the borderland sleep state, and through it, to experience the out-of-body state with full conscious awareness. 6-CDs with Guidance Manual.

So you see that while the "Gateway Experience" series is well rounded, this series is targeted at relaxation and Out of the Body experiences.

The price is $99 and can be found on the Monroe Institute website.

The New approach

2009-01-23T07:36:00.013-06:00

It's been about a month now and I have had some success projecting using a purely affirmation based approach. With this approach I have been keeping all of my focus on one or two affirmations up to the edge of falling asleep while putting my body into a deep state of relaxation.

This old approach works and I have learned a lot from it, which is why I have decided to start using a slightly different approach.

While on the way home from work yesterday a thought began to take shape in my head. It seems like my old approach and every other documented approach has one thing in common, and that is to stay alert on the border of sleep while focusing your entire attention on something / anything without falling asleep. This seems to be key for attaining an out of body experience. It doesn't matter what the attention is focused on as long as you stay alert while relaxing on the border of sleep.

The beauty of this is that one approach mentioned in William Buhlman's books "Adventures Beyond the Body" is to use visualization as the focus point. He would inspect several objects in his waking life and then was able to visualize the objects in great detail while relaxing and approaching the border state.

I have been an artist in the past and then most importantly over the last 2 years I have been programming with complex data structures and SQL. I have learned to visualize huge complex sets of data in my head and manipulate this data with pure thought without seeing anything on the computer screen. I want to use this power of visualization that I have developed and hold my focus on a set of objects while on the border or sleep.

In conclusion I think that this new approach will yield better results. I will continue to use my affirmations up to the point that I start seeing random thoughts enter my consciousness and then I will shift my focus to visualizing my cubical at work.

Wave I - Discovery 3 - Advanced Focus 10

2009-01-21T06:56:00.009-06:00

Last night I was very tired and had the beginning signs of a migraine and witnessed my first failed migraine visual aura right before bed. Normally when the visual aura appears it's a 45 minute process of progressive visual hallucinations. I was not going to risk it coming back so I headed to bed.

I watched TV for about 20 minutes and then at about 11 PM I put on the headphones and started listening to "Hemi-Sync - Wave I - Discovery 3 - Advanced Focus 10". Focus 10 is that state of "Mind Awake, Body Asleep", and is not necessarily an OBE. This state is a very relaxed state in which you don't feel much of your body anymore and you mind is totally alert.

I listened and did the breathing exercises while relaxing every muscle in my body and after about 15 minutes I found myself in Focus 10.

I was in Focus 10 for about 5 more minutes and then things started getting insteresting. The first thing that grabbed my attention was that a mans face appeared (flashed) above me. It was as if I was laying on the ground unconscious and people were standing around me waiting for me to come to. I saw a man directly over me and I could briefly hear him say something, maybe "There he is"? I sensed others standing around him. This quickly faded. I am not sure if this was hypnagogic hallucination or what, but i was alert when I saw it.

Next I found that I no longer felt my body. This was good because I was very relaxed, but it was bad at the same time because I was trying to shift my focus away from my body so that I could transition my consciousness to my higher energy body.

I wanted to test the validity of the state that I was in so I immediately shifted my focus away from my body again and I started to instantly feel a swaying feeling and felt very light. I moved my left hand down and it penetrated the bed and went right through it. I could see that I was already separated and just need to will myself away for my body.

I imagined myself floating away from my body and began to feel a slight floating sensation. I was out of my body at this point. This was abruptly ended when the Hemi-Sync track started talking again.

The moral of this story is that the Hemi-Sync technology seems to work, however I need to listen / skim ahead and see if there is a track that leaves me in the state rather than pulling me back out of it.

The Missed Signal - Hemi-Sync Reference

2009-01-19T08:18:00.010-06:00

It may be the antibiotics I am taking, but I have not been able to reach the vibrational state for a week now. Three weeks prior to writing this I had 4 out of body experiences.

Last night I repeated these two phrases until I fell asleep, "My consciousness will now transition to my nonphysical body" and "The very act of falling asleep will cause my consciousness to transition to my nonphysical body and I will have total control, crystal clarity and awareness". I repeated this as long as I could before drifting off.

I went straight into dreaming with no virbational state. I don't remember the exact details but I recieved a signal in my dream last night. One of my customers at work was calling me on the phone in my dream telling me that they have stopped using the Hemi-Sync technology and had switched to something else. My subconscious was trying to make me realize that I was in a dream and that it was time to transition, however I didn't recognize it.

Hemi-Sync has nothing to do with job recruiting. I would never receive a call from a customer at work about Hemi-Sync, which is a technology designed to synchonize a person's left and right brain hemispheres so that they can reach an altered state of awareness such as OBEs.

The fact the I recieved this signal in my dream is very promising and I am glad I recognized it afterward. This means that my brain has started reprogramming itself to achieve this new goal and shifting my conscious to my nonphysical forms. Next time I think I might be ready.

A dream transition is basically when your subconscious has been programmed to automatically look for ways to bring an OBE to reality by sending signals to you during dreams. These signals can take on any form and are basically presented to the observer as something that's out of place that would cause the observer to question the validity of the reality that they are in. Once the observer realizes that they are dreaming, they can shift their conciousness to the higher energy body and begin exploring.